I diagnose myself with deafness –
and blindness in some days,
when my eyes are swollen
and all I can distinguish are the light and dark.
But deafness is permanent.
I can’t hear myself think logically.
Even the annoying voices have become so faint.
I can’t hear the scream that escapes me
when I lay down in bed,
or the prayers I constantly repeat in desperation.
I can’t even hear the silence,
only a persistent buzz;
a broken radio with no signal.
Could be a chronic infection in my ear,
secondary to my insane state of mind,
cured if only my sanity is treated.