Shadows of your sins do not appear in the dark.

For a while, I lived in the dark.

He came, and I only knew how to threw punches to the air.

He came and wrapped me with his love,

His smile was enough to light up my way.

He extended his own light to open up a path for me.

Just as it started to become so bright,

I look behind me to convey my gratitude,

To see him sit there, drained, bruised, with half a smile.

His smile was enough to light up my way, but I realise

Why he couldn’t use that anymore; why he had to use another source of light.

In the dark, I couldn’t see where I was punching.

In the dark, I thought it was only air.

And he was the air that I was breathing- Oh.

This shell has a mind of its own.

Recently,

Your body seems to know you more than you do,

when you’re exhausted,

it decides to shut down,

automatically on autopilot;

you gradually give in to the darkness that fills your eyes,

If only it can fill my heart too, I could then be banished to a different world, 

you whisper under your breath as your mind leaves reality.

Breathe in the life you have owned.

His admiration has scattered like gas particles within the air,
As she took slow and considerate breaths,
They filled her every air space they could take over,
Expanding them, as if small bulbs were being lit,
Glowing her lungs, purifying her breaths.
Every inspiration was made with satisfaction
And every expiration ended with pure relief.
Breathe, my darling, breathe in the life you have owned,
Since the day I have loved you
Since the day you have held my hand
And found your passion spreading through my nerves,
Changing my perspective of the world,
As it centred around you, me, and our destiny
.

Satisfied with Pain

Why is it easier to live
When i see you suffocate?
Observing your pale skin
And nerves nicely thickening..
You try to breath
And I.. I stand there
Inhaling.. Aggressively.
Watching your eyes widen
With horror.
For a while,
I have been
Satisfied with pain. With your pain.

The answer
To the original question,
Is that..
You’ve never showed me
But weakness.
You have made it easier to endure.
It’s not that I enjoy seeing you suffer, like they judged
But you’ve implemented it
Within me
As a bad habit.